It is just a feeling I get

It is just a feeling I get,
a little slow
a little sour..

when it feels,

I could do
without some sunshine,
for a change.

It feels
too hot otherwise.

I like it dark
and dull at times…

The way I feel
when a damp cloth
is left for too long
in my closet.

The smell it leaves
long after it is gone.

It is not the smell
but, familiarity of it
that makes me uneasy.

It is just a feeling I get…

like sepia toned photographs
all yellow and dull.
I like them that way.

It is easy to explain
it to my heart

they are just pictures
not real-not life.


It is just a feeling I get
when the shreds
of wax colours

stick to the corners
of my nails

and I can see
the red
in them.

Dirty -they may seem
but
then
it feels
not everything
parts away easily.

It is just a feeling I get
when I know
I am not to do ‘it’
But I do ‘it’ anyway
and then I feel
what have I done?

It is just a feeling I get

It is a feeling that
differs me
from the rest.

I do not aspire to be different.
otherwise
it gets difficult to
fade away
in the crowd…

It is just a feeling I get.

When you trust someone and feel the person is indispensable in your life. You tend to make the mistake of treating him/her as a shadow to your own self. A person who is with you, for you no matter how miserable and horrendous you feel. At times even the best of days can have the worst endings.

But I like Bollywood with happy endings.

To over react is an art. I am very well trained in it.

I am in a very Self-SuckyTucchaMuccha-Crappy-Gande walaVaaahiyaatly Ghatiya Mood.. (SSTMCGVGM.. and I think you can add another 27 alphabets to it)

PS- Holi was good. Exams are on. Days were really awesome in the past. Even today ain’t that bad. It is just a feeling I get….

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  1. Its just a feeling I got
    When I read your post
    That you and I
    Both
    Could use some sunshine
    The very first rays
    We will soak in
    When it is neither too cold nor too hot
    Just soothing..just nice..just right

    We think we like it dark
    But we ainโ€™t that forgotten damp cloth
    We ainโ€™t musty or old

    Our fragrance is of youth
    Of the roses not of mothballs or rust

    Itโ€™s a feeling I got
    When I read your poem
    I like sepia toned photographs
    All yellow and dull
    Of people I have no way of knowing in this lifetime

    Then I can explain to my heart
    Babes..They are just pictures
    Not me..Not my lifeโ€ฆ

    I can err and I can learn
    I can let waxy thoughts linger
    It makes me..me
    We do not aspire to be different
    Yet we are
    In our own little special way
    We fade into the crowd and yet we stand apart

    Girl..Need I say that I loved your post?..I did..I did…And I am always in good and bad moods..alternatively..So I understand…Chill..SMile..You're Cool..Stay that way! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. so simple ๐Ÿ™‚
    u know what i like about your feeling? u didn't use high-funda words n ruin the cuteness of the feeling! ๐Ÿ˜€

    SSTMCGVGM sure does bring out the poet in u…n i love the word 'vahiyat' ๐Ÿ™‚

    i actually started writing a "it is just a feeling i get" comment…but then i suck at poetry…so back 2 a "feel good riddhi" comment! ๐Ÿ˜€

    word verification: "rehurli"…eh?

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  3. well sometimes its just like that… i got exactly what you wanted to portray… well if the days just have been 'good' why not visit my blog… i promise they will be 'better' ๐Ÿ˜›

    its good to c u back ๐Ÿ™‚

    take care and keep writing…….

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  4. I really like this post rids! Its something that everyone can relate to cuz everybody has the good days and the bad…
    Self-Sucky-Tuccha-Muccha-Crappy-Gande wala-Vaaahiyaatly Ghatiya Mood…lmao…how do u come up with this stuff?
    Best of luck for the exams!

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  5. @ Ashley- oyeeee I can't read your blog.. why why why?? I want to. it says login to read. aise kaise mujhe log in nahi kerne dogi.. YO Yo.. thank you sooo much.. I guess yours is better than mine. ๐Ÿ™‚ Hugs.. and love
    Jaldi entry do
    Riddy

    @blunt- 'rehurli' heheh sounds a regional dialect (shows i was giving linguistic exams) ๐Ÿ™‚

    @Thousif- arrey visiting helped.. thanks raja raza

    @Nim-hehe i come up with such things because they happen to me.. :/ heheh thanks for the love…exams over.. 2 in a day.. 4 in all. now the final exams in April.. have to study my ass off this time..

    @Chocolate lover- thanks for the award kiddo.. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  6. Loved it Sunshine.

    Like Bluntu says, your writing is simple and yet touches a cord. Its not wannabe, its not screaming for attention. It is very you and that is wat makes it so special.

    Keep writing ๐Ÿ™‚

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  7. @Riddhi: I have stopped blogging re..Didn't seem fun anymore..So closed the blog down.. ๐Ÿ™‚

    As for my comment, your post had your original thoughts -beautiful and heartfelt. I just got inspired..Thank you for that.
    Keep at it..You have a beautiful mind! ๐Ÿ™‚

    Word Verification: agsams

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  8. I'll tell you why this post is awesome ..

    it explains simple things just the way they were meant to be explained – simply ๐Ÿ˜›

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  9. @ Ashley
    whoa whoaa whoaaa…are u like serious? what's with people these days? ok if u don't find it fun anymore, just let it be…update only when the fun returns…why shut down the blog??? ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

    @ Riddhi
    i just realized we rarely use your blog as a chat forum…its always mine or shanu's ๐Ÿ˜›

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  10. All the best with your exams bloggy!

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  11. nd very nice writeup!

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  12. @ Bluntu

    i just realized we rarely use your blog as a chat forum…its always mine or shanu's ๐Ÿ˜›

    There are top 3 reasons for that:

    1) there is no1 more vela thn u and me who can chat away to glory in the comment section, spamming ppl's mailboxes to glory ๐Ÿ˜›

    2)There is no word verification thingi on our blogs..so the additional mehnat of typing out a weird word is saved (waise bhi itni bakwaas karte hain comments main ki word verification type karne ki energy nahi rehti)

    3)Our comment sections are more interesting than our posts ๐Ÿ™ Its sad but true my dost.I can guarantee one thing, the day i put in comment moderation, ppl will stop readin my blog..they enjoy the damn comments more thn my pst ๐Ÿ™

    Aur koi sawal??

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  13. @ shanu- hehe thank yous o much .. ๐Ÿ™‚

    @Ashley— how can u SHUT IT.. please band toh mat kero.. I agree with bluntu.. write when u feel. Donโ€™t shut. Please please please

    @R3d3MpTioN- dhanyawad for visiting and welcome to randomness ๐Ÿ™‚

    @blunty- hehe yeah we donโ€™t talk on my blog.. ab se karenge.. lets see if we are ever online the same time.. we use shanuโ€™s creative platform for our bakwas.

    @Big Omi- thank you.. exams went fine.

    @Shanu- hehhe I think shanu means and that me and him never chat on my blog.. vaise your blog is best place for our creative juices to flow. And u and bluntu any way rck it on msg chatting.. more than once..:) jugalbandi of two of my favrte ppl I like that..

    Word Verification- Jointers

    heheh joint comments.. wah wah

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